Breaking the Jar of Shame

“To stabilize your mood, the psycho-emotional tears contain stress hormones that are released so your body doesn’t trap prolactin and endorphins inside, as they can become toxic to your health. These emotional tears also have natural painkillers that help you to feel better. To protect us from physical and emotional unhealth, God created our tears,…

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When Resurrection isn’t on the Horizon

Here we are at Holy Week, the week where we had alot of hopes, and those hopes died. The week where the societal change we believed was being birthed, suddenly was aborted. What is so holy about this week? What makes this week so special? Why do Christians look towards this season with both sorrow…

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Taking Flight During COVID-19

I wasn’t sure this trip to South Texas would be worth all the trouble. What pregnant woman with a severely sprained ankle travels during a global pandemic? Was it foolish to risk exposure to COVID-19? I already struggle with claustrophobia on planes, would I have too much trouble breathing with a mask over my nose and mouth for 5 hours straight? Would my daughter be afraid seeing so many people with masks on? Would all the walking and work of navigating airports and operating as a bridesmaid in my younger brother’s wedding, impede the rehabilitative progress I had been making on my ankle?

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Marriage and Cubism

“No one had seen such a big linden tree anywhere else, and we thought of it as an aberration, but superb, with all the exotic majesty of the unique and the unrepeatable.” -Cesar Aira from The Linden Tree His eyes catch mine across the stale air of the storage unit. He pulls down a small,…

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Just Do What You Can

The pale pink sign grabbed my attention with racks of “Red Dot Items $1” and boxes of shoes and books with the same signs placed out front of the door. I was coming from an appointment with my Hand Specialist in Boca Raton (having broken my finger in September), stopping by Trader Joe’s to grab…

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Announcing “Buried in the Margins”

“Women are tired, tired of defense, tired of permission, tired of dismissal. Show me a woman who has not known abuse, who has not been betrayed, who has not been manipulated, who has not been coerced into unspeakable things: taking the fall, writing the letters, harboring secrets to stay in the game. Such oppression and…

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Poems for Motherhood

New Birth I lost more  of my mind than I did my hair when you first came out, water-logged and anxious, a bit like your mother. I cared little for social graces and faces appearing to peck at the chores and leave leftovers at my door. I needed sleep like a memory foam bra lifting…

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Kelsi’s September Book Picks

Non-fiction “The God Who Sees: Immigrants, the Bible, and the Journey to Belong” by: Karen Gonzalez A profound read, seamlessly weaving theological perspective with personal narrative all surrounding issues of immigration, compassion, and what we do with “foreigners.” This book is accessible, moving, intelligent, and inspiring. My husband and I read this book aloud during…

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The Mothering Creed

The reach of a small hand is mightier than a king’s. Resistance is exhausting–I will go with the flow, embracing with gusto whatever is in front of me. Invitations for fun are often disguised as interruptions. I will be as kind in the kitchen as I am on the page. These days are like dandelions,…

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In case you didn’t know, you are the best mama in the whole world

I head to the coffee bean hopper and turn on the grinder, filling my steel pot with water and fetch a brown, square filter for my Chemex. As I slowly pour the steaming water over the fresh grounds, I review my steps for the day, sorting through the tasks and plans, praying for clarity and…

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